I want to thank Jason, and everyone at the Monastery again for welcoming me with such openness. I’m still amazed that I was granted this opportunity to see shining examples of the teachings of A Course in Miracles, and for the first time in a long while, I do not feel alone.
Part of me wanted to stay longer, but beneath that desire was the thought that I would be doing so for the wrong reason; as a way to avoid my problems. The stronger feeling was, and is, that my travels will continue.
Before I left, Jason asked if I had had any insights. What I’m about to share was not yet clear at that time; only on the drive away did it coalesce.
That morning, several lines from a Vance Joy song kept running through my head, “I never should have told you, never should have let you see inside. Don’t want it troubling your mind, won’t you let it be?” This confused me as I could not think of anything that I had said that I felt regret for.
Eventually, the phrase, “don’t want it troubling your mind” stood out. This reminded me that the most prominent fear I had in coming to the Monastery was that I would somehow interfere with its residents’ peace of mind, simply by my presence alone. This belief that I could negatively affect other people’s state of mind has been with me for many years, and has colored many of my past experiences and relationships.
This fear left my awareness soon after I arrived. On the drive away it rose again, but I remembered David saying in one of his videos that minds cannot attack. I cried and laughed, and now feel as if the belief is being (has been?) released.
There are other things that happened that felt important, but I can’t think of them right now.
Ever since I first turned conscious of the regal and awe-inspiring presence of God, I’ve enjoyed reading many great spiritual performs just like the Bible (my favorite areas would be the Sermon on the Support and Psalms), the Bhagavad-Gita, the Upanishads, the Koran and the poetry of Kabir and Rumi. Not one of them come close to the wonder of a Course in Miracles. Reading it having an start brain and heart, your doubts and difficulties rinse away. You feel alert to a splendid love deep within you – deeper than what you realized before. The long run begins to appear so bright for you and your loved ones. You feel passion for everyone including those you formerly have attempted to leave excluded. These experiences are very strong and occasionally place you down stability a little, but it is worth it: A Program in Wonders presents you to a enjoy therefore calm, so solid and therefore general – you will question how so many of the world’s religions, whose purpose is supposedly an identical experience, got so down track.
I want to claim here to any Religious who thinks that his church’s teachings do not really meet his thirst to know a form, merciful and loving Lord, but is fairly scared to read the Course because of others’ statements it is inconsistent with “true” Christianity: Don’t worry! I have see the gospels many times and I promise you a Program in Wonders is wholly consistent with Jesus’ teachings while he was on earth. Don’t anxiety the fanatical defenders of exclusionist dogma – these poor people think themselves to be the only real carriers of Jesus’ information, and the only real ones worthy of his joys, while all other should go to hell. A Class in Miracles reflects Jesus’ correct information: unconditional passion for *all people*. While he was in the world, Jesus thought to determine a tree by their fruit. Therefore provide it a decide to try and see how a fruits that ripen in your life taste. If they style poor, you can reject A Course in Miracles. But when they style as sweet as quarry do, and the an incredible number of other correct seekers who have discovered A Program in Miracles to be nothing less than the usual heavenly treasure, then congratulations – and might your heart always be abundantly full of calm, loving joy.